You have a mini obsessive-compulsive thing going on with the food and alchohol, but then, most of us are in some area of our lives(me included). We're just not "clinical". All that activity you do, or consider doing, is great including the meditative "exercise", but do consider something that will raise your heart rate and breathing to respectable levels too. The need to do this will be more apparent as you get closer to my age, and the motivation to do so will be harder to come by. Leinenkugel's Creamy Dark, that seems to be my current favorite. One every evening is my new routine. MarkJ